it has been a long weekend for me. a very tiring one cos i met with some huge problems regarding ahem. two guys. especially ytd.. i felt like i could really breakdown any moment. thats jus me. always so indecisive. my brain almost snapped. so i cooped myself up in the room and refused to eat or do anything other than use the blanket and cover my head. anyway ppl, this method doesnt work. it just makes you think ever more.

no replies. no calls. it jus makes my life miserable. felt like i could jump down the building and die any moment. yes, life does not revolve around him. but to me, it does. the world would stop spinning without him.

call me stupid. call me dumb. call me moron. wadever that pleases you. isnt loving someone meant to be like this in the first place?

the gd news is we made up today. life is the same again. hopefully. after this crisis, i think we can understand each other more. its jus another three more years. we can do it. and i made up my mind.

celebrated mother's day on saturday. had steamboat. yummys. was reading kahfong's blog, it made me think alot. my mum is all i have left now isnt it? yeah i dun have a dad in case u all dunno. i lost him to cancer a few years back. she is really very noble. its really hard on her. i love my mum. even though i nv tell her that. i am just too proud. (:

special thanks to hongngiap and nikolas for listening to my troubles especially when both of them are equally as troubled as me and yet they gave me really gd advices. and also not forgetting my nuren jiafeng. i jus love them to bits.

you will always be my number one.
and there will only be number one in my heart.
i really love you a lot. (:
although i disappoint you time and again, you still forgave me.
i wanna marry you. <3